Still painful. When will it go?

So today I took my tramadol as soon as I woke up to minimize the pain. An hour later I was at my therapists. I told her the whole story. She set up a good safety management plan for me if things get edgy. Another local crisis centre is sending me out a management plan so if we work together it should work. All I have to do is sign a contract. Well I see what it entail s even the fine print.  I don’t like to just accept something without knowing everything. Safety first eveytime I say.

Peace,

NW

Still painful.

I’m still waking up stiff and in enormous amount of pain through all my body and limbs … even up to my jaws. I’m feeling real sensitive. I’m getting very small amount of sleep at a time.

My Friend says it’s not real pain so I should just get over it. He does’nt understand at all what I’m going through. All the time.

It’s kinda annoying my partner too cos I wake him throughout the night sore in pain.

I really need to see a doc to help me with this ongoing pain. It is making me so sad and frustrated. Even more then I was before.

I’ll make an appointment tomorow even if I look weird walking in. ( my muscles are really Sore)

Peace,

NW

Pain All Over my Body

For the last week or so I’ve been waking up in agony at about 4-5 in the morning. The pain is everywhere. I am forced to get up and try and find some kind of comfort but it is just constant.

I got blood tests done which show there is nothing wrong.

Last night I went to the doctors because the pain is starting to take over the majority of the day. I explained how things had been going. He was very understanding. I didn’t feel as panicked as much as usual in doctors. He gave me a prescription for tramadol. Today I got up in my usual state of excruciating pain. I took a tramadol and waited very impatiently for some relief.

It’s the afternoon now and I still have the pain. I find the pain has reduced somewhat but I can still barely walk or do anything with power. Typing is hurting.

I have promised my therapist and partner I will not hurt myself. Even tho it kinda helps in a way. With that promise of course includes the promise not to suicide. I’m staying strong apart from the physical pain which feels like it’s taken over. Well less then a week I’ll see my regular Doctor. Maybe they can shed some more light on the problem.

Peace,

NW